(actually, a lot has been going on. I've been partying since the 2nd of July and will probably party tomorrow too. I just feel like posting this! Okay? Okay.)

[Spell your first name backwards]:
ahtnamas

[The story behind your pen name]:
It's just always been the name I've used. I've kept it so that old friends can find me.

[3 words that sum you up]:
(right now?) REALLY GOTTA PEE

~*DESCRIBE YOUR*~

[Wallet]:
nonexistant

[Hairbrush]:
light blue and slightly translucent with the majority of the rubber tips of the bristles torn off so the metal scratches me sometimes. O_o I should really get a new one.

[Jewelry you wear daily]:
Three hoops and a stud in each ear

[Pillow cover]:
tie dye

[Coffee cup]:
I don't drink coffee, but I have a coffee cup that I painted myself at MJ Designs! It has fish on it.

[Shoes]:
None right now, but I usually wear flip flops. Even when it's a little too chilly.

[CD in stereo right now]:
'Baby Please Don't Go'- Led Zepplin

[What are you are wearing now?]:
Some old jeans and a nintendo T-shirt

[Hair]:
Long and dirty-blonde

[In your mouth]:
tongue, teeth, and spit

[In your head]:
pornography...!!!... I mean! Thoughts! Brains! No Porn!

[Eating]:
chicken

[Some of your favorite movies]:
Tokyo Godfathers, Spirited Away, Mulan, The Music Man, The Lion King, The Little Mermaid, South Park: Bigger, Longer, and Uncut, and sooo many others.

[Something you're looking forward to]:
Getting my AP Art Results soon!!!!!!!!

[The last thing you ate?]:
Chicken

[Something that you are deathly afraid of?]:
I wouldn't say DEATHLY afraid- junebugs. They're just gross.

[Do you like candles?]:
They're alright

[Do you believe in a thing called love?]:
Yeah.

[Do you believe in soul mates?]:
Sure. There are so many people in the world- there's gotta be one that's perfect for me. Even if they don't speak my language, have the same religious views, or anything else.

[Do you believe in love at first sight?]:
No.

[Do you believe in forgiveness?]:
Yes.

[If you could have any animal for a pet]:
The Shar-pei breed of dog. Those things are so freaking looking! I love 'em!

[What are 3 places you wouldn't mind relocating to?]:
England, The Florida Keys, and Hawaii.

[What are some of your favorite pig out foods?]:
Extreme Cheddar flavor 'Munchies'. It's my art food.

[What's something you wish you could understand better?]:
How to get to the top. How to be successful at what I truly want to do.

[Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?]:
Eddie. I've been thinking of him a lot lately.

~*In the last 24 hours, have you*~:

[Cried?]:
No.

[Gotten sick?]:
No.

[Sang?]:
Yes. Hee hee. I've been singing 'Ain't Seen Nothing Yet' by BTO all day long. (she looked at me with those big brown eyes- and said: You Ain't Seen Nothin' Yet!!! B-b-b-baby! You just ain't seen n-n-nothin' yet!!! *ahem* sorry...)

[Eaten?]:
yes

[Felt stupid?]:
No.

[Hugged someone?]:
No.

[Wanted to tell someone you loved them?]:
No.

[Met someone new?]:
No.

[Talked to someone you have a crush on?]:
No.

[Fought with your parents?]:
Just play fighting.

[Dreamed about someone you can't be with?]:
Yes. *sigh*

[Are you center of attention or the wallflower?]:
both! Right now I'm being a wall flower, but when I have to emerge from this room for one reason or another, and people start harrasing me, I become the life of the party.

[What type of automobile do you drive?]:
None yet. I don't like driving too much.

[Would you rather be with friends or on a date?]:
With friends.They're the greatest.

[Do you attend church?]:
No.

[Do you like being around people?]:
Yes!

[What time is it now?]:
11:19PM (central)

[What are you planning to do later?]:
Go to bed.

[What do you hear right now?]:
The TV

[What was the last thing you watched on TV?]:
The Daily Show


Good Night Everybody!!
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Have you ever seen The Lion King??? Well, if you remember that part when Rafiki finds out Simba is still alive and he starts freaking out and laughing wildly because he is so happy- that = me.

On the 16th of June I had just gotten home around 9PM from this art show I was in and I was hanging out in my room when my brother comes in and says: 'I got a surprise for you...' I figured it was just something dumb- and then, he held out his hands and there it was. My sketchbook. I was absolutely shocked. Then, when it finally hit me what I was seeing I started bawling like a baby because I was so overjoyed.

He found it on the front door step- we have no clue who dropped it off, who had it/where its been, or where it was found. The book was the same as it was when I saw it last. No pages were torn out, damaged, or written on and all the things I had tucked in the back cover were still there. The only difference is that on the inside of the front cover, someone (with very neat handwriting) had written my address. Mysterious no?

It really does eat me up wondering who returned it, but I guess it doesn't matter. I'm just glad I have it again. Funny, it was only missing for 22 days, but it feels like its been a lot longer.

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Well, my 2nd sketchbook was stolen on May 26th 2004.
I was letting my friends draw in the back of it so I could have something to remember them by (I'm graduating on the 2nd of June) and one of my friends left it someplace and someone took it. I'm angry at my friend, but she was so upset about it already and I didn't want her to feel the piercing sadness that I do, so I told her not to worry about it even though it's tearing me up inside.

I don't know how much heart I'll have to touch pencil to paper now-a-days, so I probably won't post here too much.
(not that anyone's gonna miss me or anything)

That book meant so much to me! I poured my 'soul', my all, into every page. This was not just a book of sketches as the name implies- every page was a complete artpiece. Imagine it- Over 50 complete pieces gone (including deviations: Music, How I Love Them, Macaws, Yin and Yang, Clinging, Mother of All Light, Expedition: Uncharted Planet, and Migration.)

That book was a crucial part of my portfolio for college. At any college interview, it was always the thing that impressed my interviewers most. I'm afraid that no coleges will think I'm good enough without it now. That's how good I felt about it.

And it isn't just about the art either! That book was full of memories. In the back, I kept my friends' phone numbers, screen names, things they drew, programs from plays I saw, a tiny but perfect feather, meaningful quotes, etc.

I'm getting incredibly upset just thinking about all of this. I won't be truly happy again for a long time judging by how sad I was when my last sketchbook got stolen (November 21st 2003)

My deviation, Fragmented Memorial, is a photograph of what is left of my sketchbook: 4 slides. They are arranged on a clear CD cover and held over a lamp so you can see them. Top left- baby tiger, top right- man with giant cats, bottom left- goat people on a journey, bottom right- flamingoes.

Well, I'll see ya when I see ya.

Turn up volume. Watch these. Bookmark these. They will make your life complete. Trust me, would I give you crappy flash videos to look at?

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Yay

Yes, I know, something I never thought I'd hear coming out of my mouth. Reason:
The other night I had a dream that I was Nami from the new Harvest moon game. In the dream, I cheated on the farmer with another guy in town, Marlin, and then we went into the woods and catapulted rotten fruit at the farmer's farm. It was crazy.
I wonder if you wife can really leave you in that game?
Nah... most likely not.